So here we are April 2, 2013 .. my oh my where has the time gone?! Life has been crazy as usual but I am trying to learn how to deal with it better. I truly believe that if you put your mind to something you have the power to change or achieve it. I am currently trying to learn to mellow out. I get worked up so easily over things and I literally drive myself crazy. I feel that it has been hard but I am definitely seeing a difference and what better time to mellow out. In less than 2 weeks I will be turning 25. Oh...My...Goodness... I know I know it's not that old but seriously who doesn't feel some sort of way about turning 25! I have been thinking about it over and over again and I actually feel pretty good about it. With all the diet and exercising I have been doing I feel that 25 is the start of something new and awesome. I know that I will be looker better with age instead of looking worse and I am OKAY with that!!! :) I honestly feel that I am in the best shape of my life and it's only going to get better.
I have to share this exciting experience that I had on Saturday. This really has never happened to me. I decided it was time to break down and go buy a pair of jeans and a pair of work pants. I was so nervous to go to the store because I had NO IDEA what size I was. I kind of wandered around the store putting off facing the truth. Finally, I gave it ... I picked out a pair of work pants in a size I thought I would be and I picked out a pair of jeans in the same size and decided to bring in a smaller size just for shits and giggles. I tried on the shirts that I brought in which were the smallest shirt sizes in the store and THEY WEREN'T TIGHT. I was AMAZED and could not wait to try on the jeans. So I tried on the first pair in the size I thought I would be and they fit so I just thought let me see how far I am from fitting into the smaller size... It was the most nerve wrecking experience.. I started putting my feet in one at a time and then I pulled them up and I was able to zip and button them and I could still breathe!!! I, of course, was jumping for joy and just never was able to experience that feeling. I always hated trying on clothes. I hated looking at myself in the mirror. I hated clothes shopping. I've never walked out of a dressing room with a smile on my face before. All my hard work is proof right there and motivation to keep on pushing!
I have started running over the past few weeks. What a sucky thing to do! I have such a love hate relationship with running. My trainer makes me run and I hate him for that but I also make myself run and I hate myself for that as well. LOL j.k. Being a runner has always been my dream and now I am on the pursuit of accomplishing it. I just signed up on Easter for another 5K (that's the 4th one I will be doing this year). I set myself a goal. I want to be able to run the whole race and also finish in 30 minutes. I just need to make sure that I continue to push myself and I have no doubt that I will accomplish it. My first 5K was not what I expected it to be at all but I took it as a learning experience. I will take my time and always strive to do better. I was super ambitious but sat back and decided that I need some sort of order in my life. I started back up on the couch to 5K program that I was doing before. I had gotten myself to week 4 but for some reason running on the treadmill aggravates my knee so I had to stop. I realized the past couple days that if I put the incline on the treadmill up it doesn't bother me as much but I'm trying to mainly focus on running outside. I usually start out running a mile (which is hard but I can do it) then I start the program it's been difficult pushing myself but I have 100% confidence.
I just got done hanging out with a friend who is also into the fit life and I have always been intimidated by this person. We have been friends for almost 3 or 4 years now I really have lost track and we have been gym buddies and we would both slack off. Now I feel that we both are consistently living fit lives now and I felt kind of awesome when he commented on how all my hard work has been paying off and saying how he is jealous that I can be as disciplined as I am with my eating. I obviously do this for me but when other people notice it makes me smile. I hear a lot from people about my diet and not always necessarily bad comments. People are impressed with the prep that goes into my diet each week and I am always being asked what I do and how I do it. I go to the grocery store with friends or they come with me and see what I buy and whatnot and it is nice to be able to share my knowledge with other people. I'm obviously not a nutritionist but I do plan on becoming a personal trainer within the next year or two. I am so intrigued by this lifestyle and I throughly enjoy reading about it and being able to change other peoples lives even by just offering a little motivation when they are feeling down. I hope that anyone that reads this can benefit by it in some way.
I just like for people to know that I'm a normal gal who made the decision to change her life. I have my good days and my bad days, my good weeks and my bad weeks. I am currently having a "bad week" or two with my scale. We are battling and its sooooo frustrating but I am not sure if it's the change in my exercise routines or what. On Easter I had a little bit of a cheat session which I am trying to move past but I realized that if the numbers on the scale aren't changing then something else has to change. I am now trying to commit to up-ing my cardio again. I feel that I've been slacking because I have been so focused on running. I feel that I might be building muscle which would be affecting the scale but cardio is important regardless so I am not going to get discouraged or make excuses I am just going to do what I need to do to make things go my way. To sit here and type this out and look at the life I live I realize how different I am and how far I have come in a short amount of time. I am so proud of me and I truly believe that everybody has it in them to conquer any dream. I am also excited with my non-smoking journey. I did it with the help of NOTHING. No electronic cigarette, no gum, no patches and no crazy treatments and it feels amazing. I still get cravings here and there but I am strong enough to talk myself through them.
I will wrap this up with just letting everyone know how amazing they are. If you are on this journey and you are having a bad day don't quit. It gets easier, I promise. It's worth it, I promise. And not only is it worth it YOU are worth it and don't let anyone make you feel like you are not. It is your life you are in control!
Here is me all super excited after getting into the smaller pair of jeans .. :)
Just a little quote I found.. Just think about it! xoxox
Stay positive and stay fabulous!
